Slacker!

So I totally stink because I missed our McFatty Monday, so sorry blogger buddies! Let's call it Trim Down Tuesday, :) We are in week 5 of our P90X odyssey. I have lost 15 pounds, wahoo!!, and Joey has lost 20 pounds, yeehaw! Our 30 day pictures made me feel a bit depressed, to be honest; mainly because I had never actually looked at our day 1 pics, and what I saw was frightening! I do feel better that our new pics are a vast improvement, but there is that unrealistic gene inside every woman that plans on not only looking different immediately, but the scale also showing huge losses in a week ;) I guess I didn't gain this "extra love" overnight, so it's going to take a bit of time and I guess I did just have a baby or something ;) (Joey's sweet to keep reminding me of that ;))

I'm also super excited that my Dad, Cin, and McKenzie also started P90X yesterday. It's nice to have other people along for the ride!

Eating this ridiculously healthy for a month now has caused me to have somewhat of an epiphany. The old saying of "You should eat to live, not live to eat" rings so true. It's sad that it's taken me 29 years to realize that food is just food. Yes I love to eat good food, but why have I spent my time planning my day, my work, my vacations, and pretty much my life around meals???? It's never good when you're sitting down to have lunch and already discussing what you're going to do for dinner. Food should just happen as your day goes, not planning your day around IT! Eat as boring as we have been, and you realize that not only will you forget to eat sometimes, (never thought that would happen), but food is just supposed to energize you and sustain you. Nothing more. I'm not saying I'll never enjoy pizza or a cupcake (purely for research purposes ;)) again, I'm just trying to put food in it's correct box. I've let food be a shoulder to cry on, a friend to celebrate with, and a loved one to lean on. No more man! No more!!! IT IS JUST FOOD!!!

A bit deep for Trim Down Tuesday, sorry friends, this whole thing has just triggered a lot of soul searching for me. I want to feel good from the inside out. And that means not letting food and weight and fixation on the perfect body get me down.

That's all for now. Wish us luck on our new routine this week, more tales to follow; here's wishing all of you much success in your weight loss, weight maintenance, or weight indecision (all categories are fine by me, I've been in them all ;)), yikes bikes!